What Peace Is

Heartbreak warfare
Filled with reevers and loss.
Pain, death, and tears
Follow in the Alliance's wake.
Blank hope and
Lackluster serenity
Filled with numb space.
There is no such thing as Peace.

Love Letters of Great Men - Beethoven

Good morning, on July 7

Though still in bed, my thoughts go out to you, my Immortal Beloved, now and then joyfully, then sadly, waiting t to learn whether or not fate will hear us - I can live only wholly with you or not at all - Yes, I am resolved to wander so long away from you until I can fly to your arms and say that I am really at home with you, and can send my soul enwrapped in you into the land of spirits - Yes, unhappily it must be so - You will be the more contained since you know my fidelity to you. No one else can ever possess my heart - never - never - Oh God, why must one be parted from one whom one so loves. And yet my life in love is now a wretched life - Your love  makes me at once the happiest and the unhappiest of men - At my age I need a steady, quiet life - can that be so in our connection? my angle, I have just been told that the mailcoach goes every day - therefore I must close at once so that you may recieve the letter at once - be calm, only by a calm consideration of our existence can we achieve our purpose to live together - Be calm - love me - today - yesterday - what tearful longings for you - you - you - my life - my all - farewell. Oh continue to love me - never misjudge the most faithful heart of your beloved.

ever thine

ever mine

ever ours

Beautiful Dream

Everything is being held back
by a paper thin veil.
All of these letters to you
I stuff them in the mail.
Tryin not to drown.
Its the undertow tugging at my heels.
I go through the day
simply going through the motions.
I am sapped of emotion.
I cried for a bit.
It was only for a moment.
Then I buried it down deep
and had to move on with my day.
I sit here in a stupor
numb to all around me.
Missing you weighs heavy on my heart.

In a moment of beautiful clarity
I have a vision of you and me.
In my kitchen, cooking dinner.
You come behind me and wrap
your arms around my waist.
You whisper in my ear
that you love me.
I turn in your arms and kiss you.
Letting my body meld to yours.
Letting my kiss tell you
how much I do love you.
My knees begin to tremble
at the exchange of our souls.
You crush me to your body
telling me your will never let me go.