When did I become someone who was afraid of being alone?
I look at myself and I don't recognize the person
I spent so much time
energy
crafting bit by bit
allowing pain and fear to help shape me
taking those moments
getting to the heart of myself
the root of who I am
who I want to be
making myself strong
determined
When did I settle for letting someone else
someone else determine my happiness?
I was in charge of that.
I bought the flowers.
I played the music.
I cooked the food.
I slept on the nice sheets.
I need to get back to that
not exactly that.
but some
newer
better version
of that.
