After this last heartbreak, but it wasn't actually heartbreak it was more a gross crushing disappointment, I told myself no more dating.
Strange thing, I actually meant it. No more dating, I'm actually ready to settle down. I have never meant anything more in my life.
If this is all that dating has to offer, I'm so out. Through this, I've also begun to reevaluate my friendships with others. To look at them and see if they bring any real value to my life. If they are healthy and have the ability to grow with me, or if they will try and bring me down.
I have lost three friends through this, two were friends and the other was both lover and friend. I am not sad about it, I am practical in my realization that they needed to end for me to grow. They had already begun to hinder me and would only further obstruct my growth. Much as beautiful weeds do to healthy plants that have a purpose. You must uproot the bad growth and trim things back so other things may grow. I am on the cusp of a growth spurt and these next few months are the most crucial. It is here and now that I will lay the groundwork, the foundation upon which my future will be built. I cannot afford to surround myself with those who will not support me nor will they help build me up at this juncture.
